I'm afraid of life.
No seriously.
I wish my parents raised me better. To not be afraid, to not be so shy. To have some confidence. But in the end, I can't really blame them can I? I can only and should only blame myself. -sigh-.
-SIGH-.
I still really dislike humanity but at the same time, I feel so blessed to be alive. Have you ever thought about how many millions of year life has existed on the earth? How we were once just chemical elements, struck by lighting, eventually to evolve into a since cell? Then multicells. How many millions of years did it take so that I may exist today? The Earth is my mother, and my father. This sounds stupid, but I think this is maybe why I dislike humanity so much. People don't think about what they do to this planet. They aren't grateful, they don't take care of it like it takes care of us. Sometimes I just want to exterminate them all... Humans are so self-centred. Even I am. -sigh-.
Its hard to start caring. I know it'd probably be better if I did start caring again. To be a better friend. To actually BE a good friend to someone. I had friends before I'm sure, they... just didn't care enough I s'pose. So really why should I care? ARGH. I'm in a pickle. I was born in a pickle. Enough complaining. More action!
-punches something-
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Comments (1)
hehehe, did u missed me chrissy...
have you been reading my old entries again... cuz u sound like me, hahaha
dont get me wrong, i still have trouble and dislike dealing with lower life-forms (humans)... why,... cuz they stank.... they stank :p hahaha
and oh... it does not sound stupid, cuz my thoughts are exactly like yours... all these humans are ruinning my savage garden.
but i also feel bless, cuz who would make all them movies for me to watch, and who would make my mars bars ... so i cant really exterminate them all... maybe most of them ... : p
oh, if you'er christian... the earth is 6 - 10 thousand yo... and you'er a decendant of adam's rib :p hahaha
yeah... caring is hard, specially when nothing is filling you back up agian, you get empty... cuz u put yourself out so much, u know what i mean.
Im afraid of life too... well not exactly, im afraid of living forever... i think maybe death is afraid of me... thats why i havent died yet.
and no dont blame yourself... silly girl... u did your best, what was given to you. and you'er a striving talented lil girl... so you'er doing something right... (if anyone, the parents are to be blamed, for not providing an ideal environment)
oh, i love your other blog, it's very good : )